Guilty feeling that no words can be used to describe it.

It was honestly not my choice and I have no knowledge about it :(

I feel bad for not being able to meet up with the expectations set.

The feeling is just so ○○○○○○ up!

Is like I've set up a hatred barrier towards it but I can't be doing it simply because it's my main/core subject for my future job.

The first wrong/bad impression is good enough to destroy my future completely.

I can't describe the feeling when I saw their disappointments.
No matter how much I deny it, it's TOTALLY MY FAULT