How much can I withstand?

Not the best day of my life😖

So many news that's not too good 😭

How can I take such news I. A relaxing matter?

She's been with me throughout my life~

Not only is she my faithful listener, her advices are the best...

She's the only one who is always so encouraging, always motivating me to do better😊

The doctor is being too straightforward for my liking...

I believe, not everything in life must be told honestly, a little twist and turn might make things seem or sound better, don't you think?

The fact that time is running out, makes me want to stay by her side more than ever, even if it means that I'll have to leave in the middle of a class or just to skip it.

I was told to be prepare for quite a while before, I tried to accept it, but by spending more time together, I got my hopes up on us being together forever.

The news from the doctor is as if he wants to take my life together😭

I don't think I can accept it anytime soon😞

It's not that easy for me to accept it openly. Even now, I'm just drowning my self with tears while living in denial😰

P/s: I know drinking won't help in any aspect, but hopefully it'll make me mentally exhausted to have sufficient rest before the war😑

How? 어떡해?

지금은, 나는뭐하는게야?

Being the eldest is really~ >.<

Sometimes, trust is what you need to give, and trust is what you get...
It's all about give and take~

Not everything I do is right, I admit, likewise, not everything I do is wrong... 믿어하세요~

I did not demand for a lot of thing, all I ever ask for is a little trust and comfort now and then, is it too much?

I know that I'm suppose to be the matured one who has to make huge/enormous decisions for a better future of mine, but can't I just be a small child to you?

I have never really intentionally rebel, it is just that I think that I am at the suitable age to start my own venture into the real world...
If you never experience it, you will never know it.

"The most memorable things are learnt through the toughest experiences"

All my doings are just ask for the slightest attention from you...
Even when I am right in front of you, you walk pass me as if I am invincible, what about later, when we are separated by the vast ocean?

:(

STOP!

Quit it!

That's all I need to do~
Why suffer because of the past if you can move on in life?

Anyways, I'm back to my kiddy days where playgrounds are my favourite places besides the beaches, mountains, resorts and etc...

Had a spendid evening yesterday with my classmates :D
It's rare to spend an evening with them without worrying of being late for class or whatsoever~ :)

Enjoyed myself a lot...
Despite some minor issues~

In our daily lifes, there are many happy and unhappy things that are bound to happen.
Just live life the way it is~

Faith♥

What is happening?

You said before that what happens in the society/committee, stays in the society/committee. However, as things as going about now, what is said isn't being before.

It's so disappointing~
A society is suppose to work in a team~
Joining a committee/club is to learn and inculcate teamwork and not to be influence with politics that cause us to be separated.

Why can we change so fast? From best friends (or at least that is what I think), to total strangers?
I don't even know whether I should wave to you or great you >.<

Or maybe, it's just me who isn't able to adapt to rapid changes~
Even though there are some arguements, thete will sure be ways to solve the problem! Nothing can't be solved, as long as there's a will to execute it, nothing is impossible~

Hopefully things will change soon~

P/s: Have you forgotten about our plans to study abroad together? To UCB? To be roommates and course/classmates?

P/s/s: Or did you just utter it for the sake of saying something at that time? I expected more from you, as a leader, don't make my expectations drop lower that what it is now~

Sorry if anyone's offended, but this is my thoughts about this issue~ If we, as the Top, can't even solve our internal problems, who else to expect to attend to the other club/society/committee issues? :(

Reality!

Time to face reality, huh(?)!

The world is so realistic that it hurts sometimes~
Used to be ignorant about that fact but now when it's being rubbed on, "Ouch! It hurts!".

It doesn't matter if you're good in the inside because the impressions given are mostly judged the second they look at you :(

So sad T.T

P/s : I guess I've never been slim before. Time for a change(?) Hopefully it'll work *fingers crossed*

Trust!

'Trust' is a one time thing. No second chance. Appreciate it! :)

I personally think that I trust easily but once I lose my trust for you, it'll be gone forever (unless I've lost my memory xP).

Being frank, I've trusted too many people until I've got this fear 'of meeting new people' in me…

I hated being anti-social but I learnt from past experiences that I tend to trust people easily because they are my friends without even thinking twice.

I know that I've gotta change but it's not easy to change a person's personality especially a trait that has been with the person eversince forever~

CHANGE!
^ Resolution for 2013(?) :P

Childhood~

Mostly of the time we say that our childhood is like a piece of memory that we don't remember as though we're drunk. But the truth is, we have to admit that our childhood holds the best memories~

When we're young, we were much carefree rather than having so much of worries :(

It doesn't matter who we are, where we are, or what we are… Because now, all of us have worries and problems whether it affects us directly or indirectly.

I miss the carefree times where there weren't much worries of what to do or what are the consequences of out actions. As we grow older, we have to make decisions that will somehow affect our lives in a way or another.

For example, if we want to pursue our dreams to be a doctor, we've got to work hard towards our dream and not laze around~ Every single action will affect the future results :( One wrong move and we're a goner~ >.<

Lesson learnt : 'PXXXXXX' is nice but also not. As learnt in Organizational Behavior (subject), too much of 'pxxxxxxx' is not good because of the defensive behaviour to go against it :(

Sad! Angry! Disappointed!

Decide(?)

Conflicts are bounded to occur. But, the question is, whether they can be avoided or not :)

Personally, I would prefer to avoid it (call me coward or whatsoever :P)! Why? This is simply cause you can make everyone satisfied by doing a single thing.

Humans are different in one way or another, so how can we satisfy everyone? Therefore, at times, we have to be 'selfish' to avoid ourselves from unnecessary stress xP

Lesson learnt : Since we can't satisfy everyone, why don't we satisfy ourselves first ;)
&
It not necessary to care abouy everyone's opinion because the more opinions you get, the more hassle you will face >.<

Conclusion : SAD!