Friday, June 21, 2013

Guilty feeling that no words can be used to describe it.

It was honestly not my choice and I have no knowledge about it :(

I feel bad for not being able to meet up with the expectations set.

The feeling is just so ○○○○○○ up!

Is like I've set up a hatred barrier towards it but I can't be doing it simply because it's my main/core subject for my future job.

The first wrong/bad impression is good enough to destroy my future completely.

I can't describe the feeling when I saw their disappointments.
No matter how much I deny it, it's TOTALLY MY FAULT

Monday, June 3, 2013

Gratitude or Otherwise…

Case 1 : Sometimes, I'm grateful of having you as a friend but, I feel like you're a bad influence. You can afford many things but not me. I try to stay away from your offers but it seems that you don't bother much about others' opinions'.

It's not that I mind or what, but just because I'm being lenient, doesn't mean you should take advantage of it.

If you wanna talk, be considerate and talk elsewhere. I've got aims in life that I hate to lose out. I cherish you as a friend, so please, don't be the one that makes me lose the most important thing to me and my future.

I, seriously, don't want to hate you. Please have goals in life. I want to live an immature-like lifestyle, so please let me be. You, on the other hand, please (x2), be wiser in thought. :)

-End of Case 1-

Case 2 : If you're not gonna listen, then there's no point asking. "It's like pouring a whole pot of soup, then ask if anyone want to taste it. Xp"

If you think my suggestions are pure b*llsh*t, you can be frank with me, instead of rejecting it in public after being proposed and being half way through the process.

You said you don't wanna do so many things, end up, you just take in everything offered. Is it according to the original plan? And, when I voice out my disagreement, I'll get that 'you-better-listen-to-me-as-I-make-myself-clear' look. You weren't even like this a year ago.

Has power made you like that? Or the new environment you're being exposed or socialized with? I'm disappointed in you.

Despite all my unhapiness, I'm still persistant of completing my duty as what you've put your 'trust' on. I, honestly, don't know how much more of these crap can I tolerate further.

Being all quiet doesn't mean I'm agreeing. And, just because I respect you in public as a Superior and 'friend', that doesn't mean I won't turn my back on you!

Quit pushing it. You're not the only one who can do that. You've got no control of me. Just be cause you have a good accomplice, it doesn't mean that whatever you do is right.

If you think your accomplice is really that good, promote her and let her fight along with you. While I'm being left alone to lead my ordinary non-hectic lifestyle.

To be honest, I miss that so much♥ Bonding time with family members and classmates with no worries~ :)

-Emd of Case 2-