Unappreciated

Nothing better to describe my feelings other than the word unappreciated.

Don't understand why some people just can't be grateful and thankful for the things you do for them. 

It doesn't mean that you'll have to acknowledge it always, just once in a while, is sufficient. But yet, even the slightest, you are still unable to do so.

The suffocating feeling of being unappreciated is just too unbearable. It's not just a one time thing, instead, it can be considered as a routine(?)

Don't you know respect? 

If you don't respect others, how do you expect the others to respect you?

It's not compulsory for those younger to show the elders respect, but that's the basic manner, moral you had to learn ever since primary school.

You know how to rant, complain and do all sorts of things, but what about me? I'm just sharing and what do I get in return? An annoyed face to add on with an annoyed tone to tell me off?

Funny, not!

I believe what I'm sharing is for your own good, if you don't want to listen, you could have just tell me nicely. Even though it's not that good, but it's better than relaying your dissatisfaction with an irritated expression.

How much can I withstand?

Not the best day of my life😖

So many news that's not too good 😭

How can I take such news I. A relaxing matter?

She's been with me throughout my life~

Not only is she my faithful listener, her advices are the best...

She's the only one who is always so encouraging, always motivating me to do better😊

The doctor is being too straightforward for my liking...

I believe, not everything in life must be told honestly, a little twist and turn might make things seem or sound better, don't you think?

The fact that time is running out, makes me want to stay by her side more than ever, even if it means that I'll have to leave in the middle of a class or just to skip it.

I was told to be prepare for quite a while before, I tried to accept it, but by spending more time together, I got my hopes up on us being together forever.

The news from the doctor is as if he wants to take my life together😭

I don't think I can accept it anytime soon😞

It's not that easy for me to accept it openly. Even now, I'm just drowning my self with tears while living in denial😰

P/s: I know drinking won't help in any aspect, but hopefully it'll make me mentally exhausted to have sufficient rest before the war😑

Half way through~

Half way through my 2nd semester~ 

Looking much haggard than before😱

Anyways, can't wait for this semester to end, and to start a fresh along with the new year~🎉🎊🎉

More than one month left for 2014, but it seems like I didn't do much this year😭

But, I graduated~💜 Thankfully🙏

Life is gonna get tougher with more assignments and internship coming ahead~ 😅

Wondering if I should start talking up challenges that will allow me to increase my confidence in public like maybe joining a public speaking workshop?

Or should I just postpone it yet again?😰

Anyways, I believe it's been a while since I've taken a selfie 😳😅 

So I'm planning to be syok-sendiri💜

P/s: love the shadows of my owl cover😈

Confused?

Not the time for it~

As the course syllabus gets tougher, more complications occur😖

It's inevitable, but if we were to face it positively, nothing is impossible😅

At times like this, I would like to not diversify my focus as I believe my future is the most important thing for me and not other factors. 

To get there, I need a strong foundation of what I'm studying so, if you're not going to help me out, could you please stay away? 

This is the first time in my life where I've gotten a planner and actually make use of it fully... 😓

I consider this, a proud achievement for me as I've never been a person who is that organised enough to be prepared for the future...

It seems like being 20 made me realised plenty of things...

And for the fact that I'm not an outspoken person, it is actually a huge obstacle for me to climb greater heights😭 

But, I've decided to work on it, so afraid not, most probably when I'm 21, I'll be a much different person then I am in my 10s. -A promise to myself

Work hard, enjoy later~💜

Other things will come in, in the later part of life~😄

P/s: For the time being, I believe the best solution is to sort myself out first before committing in relationships, loans, investments and etc. ✌️

P/s/s: I can't believe my schedules are almost fully planned for next year~😭