It really makes me wonder most of the time, however, I'm often unable to solve this "problem".
Throughout the years, I thought that by keeping you out of sight, you'll be out of mind, but when you reappear, everything went back to zero๐
What could be the factor that is still kept in me that resist me from moving on? Could it be the longingness of having a close friend or just maybe another sibling? Or maybe I'm just dwelling in the past due to some regretful action and words said?
It just doesn't make sense on how it is easy to move on. Yes, I've told people to move on it for a better future, but now that I'm in such situation, why can't I do what I say to others? No wonder action speaks louder than words๐
Nope, I'm not being resentful, I'm just being like a hermit crab, hiding from the future and dwelling in the past memories.
Hopefully I'll be able to escape my shell for another new and bigger shell, so that I'm able to create new memories filled with happiness๐
P/s: I'm not writing for sympathy, to express my resentment or whatsoever. Instead, I'm just expressing myself as I'm unable to just speak it out loud (shy). I'm trying to prevent myself from depression due to my inability to move forward. And, yes, I'll keep myself busy with hope that it'll help me to think more about the future✌️๐ถ
