A new mindset~♥

College life has never been easy for me, as I am a person who is 100% dependent towards my family members.

However, I have learnt that nothing comes easy in college as this is a new chapter in life that is filled with difficult obstacles where family only comes in as moral supporter and other than that, you are all on your own...

There are times where miscommunications may occur and unpleasant words may be uttered without actually intending to offend the other party, but one thing for sure, WE ARE DEFINITELY ON OUR OWN...

Trust is an extremely big word that has many meanings... Since it carries a huge burden with it, the 'Do you trust me?' question should not be simply asked...

Being someone who is naïve (and stupid), I had been through many exceptionally tough times where the last resort is just to solve it with tears silently at home... But that is definitely not a recommendable solution as it only makes me weaker...

I have always been a persistent person in figuring out what I did wrong and to actually solve a problem through instant conversations. However, I have neglected the consideration of others' as of whether that is their way of solving the problem...

As of today, I've finally learnt my lesson, where, you don't need to always been a perfect best friend to everyone, all you need is to be a good listener, just speak out at necessary times and be optimistic in life...

Thanks to my friend who is like a long lost sister to me, to show me the right path when I'm being lost in the sea of messy thoughts... ♥

There are too many to hear but too little that will actually lead me to the ultimate outcome I desire for...
Maybe I should just leave it that way to stay out of unnecessary troubles ;)

Hear me out! -based on my POV

I'm glad to have told out what I really feel and to share my point of view (POV) of things.

Honestly, I do not really care if that changed your mindset of me or not, because I have already clarified everything from my POV and if you choose to believe in what you hear, go on, I cannot force you to believe anything you do not want to believe.... :)

The thing that I cannot tolerate at all, is for people to go around spreading unnecessary rumours of things I did not do...

I do not want to move on/graduate knowing that I am being accused of things I did not do..

We are at the age where we are wise enough to actually differentiate the right and wrong doings, however, there are undeniable cognitive barriers in between, but it takes a lot of concentration and thoughts to actually make a better decision...

Do what you think is the best after much considerations instead of just acting rash about some minor things...

You know what is wrong and right for you, no one can decide for you as of what is wrong or right. :)

How? 어떡해?

지금은, 나는뭐하는게야?

Being the eldest is really~ >.<

Sometimes, trust is what you need to give, and trust is what you get...
It's all about give and take~

Not everything I do is right, I admit, likewise, not everything I do is wrong... 믿어하세요~

I did not demand for a lot of thing, all I ever ask for is a little trust and comfort now and then, is it too much?

I know that I'm suppose to be the matured one who has to make huge/enormous decisions for a better future of mine, but can't I just be a small child to you?

I have never really intentionally rebel, it is just that I think that I am at the suitable age to start my own venture into the real world...
If you never experience it, you will never know it.

"The most memorable things are learnt through the toughest experiences"

All my doings are just ask for the slightest attention from you...
Even when I am right in front of you, you walk pass me as if I am invincible, what about later, when we are separated by the vast ocean?

:(

As time passes by…

‥ I am actually steps closer to my dream of studying abroad... Hopefully there is not any sudden changes in plan *fingers crossed*

Studying abroad means a lot to me as it is one of the ways for me to be a much independent person...
Besides that, I will also have to learn to 'suck it up', both, positively and negatively as my avid listeners, my grandparents, will be hundreds or thousands of kilometers away from me T.T

No doubts that I will miss my family much, but, with the thoughts of making them proud, by hope, it will be my motivator to strive for greater success~

I am still unsure whether or not as to, if I am returning back to Malaysia, but time will tell~

[With every day passing by, I am no where but nearing to my dream] ♥

By the way, just if you are interested, I am going to be an official driver and no longer a driver on probation~ xP

And, meet my buddy/companion/compatriot, 허니허니~♥ (in the picture, my candy colour doll) :D

Living life…

… just the way I want it to be~

Hehehehehe~
I've always preferred to be a cutie instead of an arrogant person, who is difficult to approach :(

I wonder what must be done to change people's perspective/impression of me T.T
It's pretty depressing...

Anyways, I've enjoying my life now as I'm having my semester break♥♥♥

Anddddddd, have you saw JYP's new boy group, GOT7♥
They are freaking awesomeeee♥♥♥

Also, the intro of Girl's Day's new song, Something, is soooooooo addictive ♥♥♥

Don't you look into my eyes and lie again, I'm sick of being alone~

Enjoying Malaysia while I'm still here ¦P

Not forgetting that the Chinese Lunar New Year is around the corner, have to get my festive mood on to welcome the HORSE~ ★★★

Angpaus~ a child's favourite :D

New Year, New Start~

Hikes~

Any changes noticed?
Anyways, it's 2014!!!
You know what that means?
20.20.20.20.20.20.20.20.20.20

I'm turning 20 this year~
Time flies~ >w<

What better than to usher the New Year with #IceWine~ :D

Resolutions:
- Wiser
- Meaner (?)
- Friendlier (Introvert >>> Extrovert)
- Matured
- Work harder

And to begin,
Copper-Red hair, although it's not so visible >.<

Change, change, change!!!
:D

Working hard to leave behind wonderful memories~ :)

Different people have different perspectives in life~
As for me, I would like to cherish every single moment spent with everyone...
It's not like I'm dying or whatsoever (but who knows, just in case xP)
Therefore, I would like to bond with everyone as much as possible as that was my "aim/goal" for college besides studying hard...

However, the results seem to be disappointing...
I don't blame others as I'm partially at fault due to my 'introvert' personality that's getting me no where...
The main reason as to why I've made my life's most important decision a few days back is to change my personality, to learn how to live independently and not be like a crybaby who's also so dependent on others...

I've to learn how to adapt to the outside world.. Despite the inevitable harshness of the 'outside world', I'll still have to face it by myself :)

Going or not, who cares!
I'm in this for myself, as it's about time to consider about only me, rather than taking into considerations of what you think...

You might not know or feel it, even I was oblivious of what happen until someone gave me a wake up call as to how I've been treating all those around me because I focus too much on you all...
I didn't know that I was such an ass(?) to have treated someone like that, that person's intention is most of the time good, however, due to the current influence, I made such a horrifying decision to hurt that person.
And yet, that person still treats me with kindness of a sister, that even my blood-related sister fails to.

I'm about to change for good.♥