-끝- Once and for all~

How can I convince myself to believe in you when you keep making such huge reactions just because of a simple matter?

Regardless of how much I tell myself to just believe in what you have been believing all these while, it all seems to be useless with just a small reaction of yours...

Do you realise something? That no matter how much you say that you do not care about the current topic, you always react otherwise? At first I did not realise that. However, after some signals from others to make me a little observant instead of being ignorant, I realise that just because of a simple short question, you will react as of the world is collapsing >.<

I would not use the word 'trust' in anything I say to others as I realise how burdensome that word is. But just why can't you believe in your friends? Just because 1 person is like that, it does not mean everyone is like that.

It has been like 2 years (maybe slightly lesser), do you not realise what's going on and happening? You claim to have a better intuition than me, you should have sense things faster than me.

I may seem like a coward to be typing this out instead of saying, but let me tell you that, if I were to tell this upfront, things would not turn out nice, instead it will be much further from the truth just like where we are now...

I heard from every party, things are getting confusing as hell! Can't you just bear with the slightest info given to you? If I were to tell you everything I know, you will keep an even further distance than it is now... But the funny thing is that, it has nothing to do with me... Instead, I am the 'victim'.

As much as I like to just tell everything out directly, I think that I am rational enough to actually filter out what should be said and what shouldn't...

Please, just mean what you say...

As much as I want to believe in what the others have been telling me, there is always a part in me that is telling me to just believe in you because you are who you are. No one has the right to make you be the person you are...

We are not 100% close buddies, but aren't us 50% buddies?
Well at least that is what I believe...
(That we are about 75% friends)

I would not ask for us to be Best Friends Forever (BFFs), but can't we be Best Friends till the end of our studies at least?

P/s: This post is not to ask for sympathy or whatsoever, it's clearly to express my frustrations... :):

Honestly, I hope you are having a wonderful day~